my answer has always been “yes.”
yes to God having His way..
yes to you
to doing all I could to place you in the best care, no matter what it cost.
yes to God’s very best.
It is hard for me to say in human words
the pull you have on my heart
before you are even born
the welling up of my entire life
the belief that I have in you
the “yes” I feel about everything you will do.
There will never be anything to separate us, really.
Our lives will be threaded with memories
woven with words and unaltered acceptance
no matter what.
You will always be my next thought.
I will remember you bouncing on my lap
singing in the front seat of my car
I will listen to you with ears that take in more than your voice
I will enter you into a secret place
the part of me you first came from
And there, my son, you can fully rest
and know beyond knowing
my answer has always been “yes.”
To Grant Hawkins Eastin
Love, Your Mother
10.11.2007
